Lost and Found

Hallelujah

Sun, 12 May 2013 11:04:57 -0400

Not money
Not grades
Not fame
Not health
Not knowledge

Hallelujah! All I have is Christ!

Late Night Thoughts

Mon, 22 Apr 2013 22:49:49 -0400

wondering,

where do you draw the line between trying to be better and accepting who you are

Hate. The longer you hold onto it, the more you become the very thing you detest.

Sun, 17 Feb 2013 18:17:21 -0500

Hate.
The longer you hold onto it, the more you become the very thing you detest.

“The Great God values not the service of men, if the heart be not in it: The Lord sees and...

Mon, 21 Jan 2013 21:09:40 -0500

“The Great God values not the service of men, if the heart be not in it: The Lord sees and judges the heart; He has no regard to outward forms of worship, if there is no inward adoration, if no devout afection be employed therein. It is therefore a matter of infinate importance, to have the whole heart engaged staedfastly for God.” -Isaac Watts

MIA

Sat, 13 Oct 2012 21:03:50 -0400

call it running away
call it ignorance

Hiatus.

what matter of love is this that You would say, “your sin is mine; I’ll take it to the...

Sat, 15 Sep 2012 23:03:03 -0400

what matter of love is this that You would say, “your sin is mine; I’ll take it to the grave”? death, oh death, where is your sting today? death is swallowed up in victory

Stuck.

Fri, 07 Sep 2012 21:59:37 -0400

Stuck.

The sin of unbelief is often rooted in the misconception that you are what you do. Be calm, my...

Fri, 07 Sep 2012 14:18:26 -0400

The sin of unbelief is often rooted in the misconception that you are what you do.

Be calm,
my drifting and unsteady heart.

Whoosh

Mon, 27 Aug 2012 21:28:06 -0400

New chapter begins.
So much happening at once.

scared, intimidated, thankful, hopeful, amazed

Yup, I’m ready.

Dear God, May I not use Your grace as an excuse to continue on sinning, but as every reason to stop.

Sat, 18 Aug 2012 09:53:27 -0400

Dear God,

May I not use Your grace as an excuse to continue on sinning, but as every reason to stop.

The Only Thing In Me

Fri, 17 Aug 2012 20:13:00 -0400

I heard someone say the other day
They’s seen in me true love displayed
Blessed by something I had done for them
No sooner did they speak those words
I foundmyself somehow disturbed
Uneasy as I took their compliment

Becuase I know the heart inside this man
And I know the truth of who I am

If you could walk the hallways of my heart
And see things as they really are
I wonder if you might be surprised
Seeing faded walls of pride and fear
Rooms I’ve filled with faithless tears
And corners where I’ve stood in compromise

The only thing that’s good in me is Jesus
The only thing that’s good in me is Jesus
I’ll live long enough to know no matter what this life may show
The only thing that’s good in me is Jesus

A blabbering confession.

Sun, 05 Aug 2012 18:22:00 -0400

I know it in my head but I don’t feel it in my heart. What I want to do, I don’t do and the thing that I do not want to do, I do. I know what to do and what not to do and, though I know the distinction, my heart is blind and ignorant to it. I know the gospel in my head, but it is my greatest fear and most sobering thought that my heart is far from it. Lord, Lord! did I not lead your people to love you more? Lord, Lord! did I not lead praise for you? Lord, Lord! did I not go where you told me to go and do what you commanded me to do? Blankly the King stares and says, I never knew you. Though you may have known me, I don’t know you.

It’s easy to fake it. It’s easy to smile, to show compassion, to pray for someone, to lead praise, to be a christian one day of the week, to offer your tithe, to go on missions- it’s easy to pretend to be a Christian. In fact, it’s so easy that you might not even know you’re pretending. You might say and believe that you’re a christian when, really, the King doesn’t know you. If this is the case, how can we be sure that our faith in God is true and genuine? Scripture says that true, genuine, saving faith is followed by action and deeds (James 2:14). But what does this look like? Does this mean that, if faith is genuine, good works and actions come as an automatic by-product, requiring no individual effort or will power to do so? Or does this mean that, though our heart may be reluctant to change and though we might not what to do a certain good work, we do so anyway, by faith?

My big question is this- What is the lie you’re living? Think of the image people have of you: If i were to go to one of your friends and ask what they thought of you, I’m sure that mostly good characteristics will be listed. But let’s just say, hypothetically, I went to the throne room of God and spoke with Him, face to face, and asked the same question. God what do you think about so and so. What would He say? And, let’s just say, after my interview with both your friend and God, I sat down to compare my notes. Would there not be a disparity between the two? Sure, the degree to which they differ will change from person to person, but nonetheless, the disparity will be there. What is the lie you’re living?

Dear tumblr reader,
I am here to confess that I am not who people think I am. My life, sinful. My sin, shameful. My shame, unbearable. I am an insecure, selfish, and immature man who lusts after things of the world. I long for worldly pleasures. I yearn for the ‘unforgettable, regrettable night” that friends will talk about for years to come. I am not a man of self-control nor am I filled with love and compassion for others. I preach about the cross and point people to Christ when I don’t even have the strength nor the wherewithal to guide myself. Tumblr reader, do not think I am being overly dramatic or cynical- if only I had the courage to break down all the walls and share with you just how dark my heart is.

And yet, I have the audacity to go before Him and ask, “please, one more chance. Please, one more chance.” His grace is too deep for me. His pardon is too great for me. His mercy is too loving for me. For someone like me, He is too great. For someone like me, His death was too rich. I do no deserve it. someone like me does not deserve it. Empty handed, dirty, and poor I come to the table, asking for a crumb, a speck, from the feast and, seeing me, He stops the music, comes down from His seat to pick me up. He knows how dirty I am and yet,He embraces me, lifts me up and carries me. He washes me, clothes me with fine garments, and lets me sit next to Him at the feast. He feeds me the best food and offers to me the best wine. He announces to all His guests that I am His son. He is too good to someone like me.

Christian, have you known grace like this? That erases all your past, present, and future mistakes? Brother, sister, have you known a better love than this? That forgives your adulterous heart and welcomes you home every time? Believer, have you known a greater sacrifice than this? That offers you the best seat in the house at the cost of His own, beloved Son.

God You are truly too great for me.
Please God, steer me in the right direction
Teach me your ways
Most importantly, change my heart.
Remind me that there is no sin too great, no distance too far
Grow me in faith

Something about stepping onto the court- no worries, no cares, no ‘how-do-I-look’- just...

Wed, 25 Jul 2012 21:53:22 -0400

Something about stepping onto the court- no worries, no cares, no ‘how-do-I-look’- just you, the ball, and the rim.

Man, I love basketball.

To you, yes you- an encouragement.

Tue, 10 Jul 2012 21:29:00 -0400

“It is true I am weak in faith, and prone to fall, but my very feebleness is the reason why I should always be where You feed Your flock, that I may be strengthened and preserved in safety beside the still waters. Why Should I turn aside? There is no reason why I should, but there are a thousand reasons why I should not, for Jesus beckons me to come. If He withdraws Himself a little, it is but to make me prize His presence more. Now that I am grieved and distressed at being away from Him, He will lead me yet again to that sheltered nook where the lambs of His fold are sheltered from the burning sun.”

Sister,
hold on to the promises of God. Do not be anxious (Matthew 6:25-28) for God is faithful and He will keep you strong until the end (1 Corinthians 1: 8-9)

haha I’ve never uploaded me singing.Not good, but eh,...

Tue, 19 Jun 2012 11:08:00 -0400

haha
I’ve never uploaded me singing.
Not good, but eh, its allll good.

Deja vu

Sun, 17 Jun 2012 23:46:16 -0400

I’m not going to let you win.
I won’t stop ‘til I make you regret.
This is the only way I know how to do it.
This is how I cope.

Game on.

Some days you’re stuck between wanting to move on and wanting to hold on.

Mon, 04 Jun 2012 18:51:53 -0400

Some days you’re stuck between wanting to move on and wanting to hold on.

QT

Tue, 29 May 2012 21:07:00 -0400

“Then Jesus said to him, “Put your sword back into its place. For all who take the sword will perish by the sword. Do you think that I cannot appeal to My Father, and He will at once send me more than twelve legions of angels?” - Matthew 26:52-53

Complete, utter humility.
Wholly, entirely submissive.
Unbelievably obedient.

He put God’s glory above all else.

He could have said, “No.”

IFI submission: Final Thoughts

Fri, 04 May 2012 03:06:00 -0400

In the next few paragraphs I do not intend on impressing anyone with some profound insights on life nor is my purpose to move anyone in anyway. I am not good with words and I find it rather difficult to express how I feel onto paper. Simply put, I wish to share some of my final thoughts with those who find themselves to this page in hopes that the words I write would encourage and guide them to love Christ more.
Freshman: To all of the freshmans of KCF: I am sorry that I have not reached out to a lot of you. As graduation quickly approaches I have realized that I have not been a brother to you, let alone love you as I should. In any case, as I leave college behind, I want to share my finals thoughts with you. Congratulations on successfully completing your first year of college! You all know as well as I do how quickly it all went- for a lot of you, it felt like yesterday that you were moving into SBU.  Cherish all the moments you have, good ones and bad for time only flies by quicker from here. Remember that there is nothing more important in this life than seeking after a relationship with Christ. Academics, friends, family- all of that and everything else is secondary to knowing and loving Christ. Seek Him in all that you do and strive to keep Him at the center of your life. Trust Him when deciding what to do with your future career and know that He has ordained everything in your life perfectly; there is nothing that happens without God letting it.  Offer to God your best and trust in His plan for your life.  Remember that in order for your priorities to be straight, Christ must be of first importance. With that being said, study hard, play hard, and find joy in God. Enjoy the next 3 years of college; you’ll miss it when it’s gone!
Praise Team: I want to start off by saying that I love you all, each and every one of you. When I consider all the things this team has been through and how far we have come as a team, I can only say that God has been extremely gracious to us, providing us with not what we think we need, but what He knows we need. I count myself blessed to have been part of this team. It was an honor as well as a previledge to have been your leader, your brother, and your fellow worshipper. I will surely miss you all- serving and leading with you has been one of the greatest joys in my college career. As this team moves foward, I want to remind you all something that I have mentioned several times before.  Leadership will change, membership will change, small group dynamics will change, but our God does not.  He is the same yesterday, today, and tomorrow. He has been faithful to His people and will continue to stay faithful to those who place their faith in Him. Problems will arise, conflicts will come but I implore you all to fixate your eyes on Christ, the author and perfector of our faith.  Strive daily to remember the cost by which you were saved as well as the victory you have won in Christ and may that knowledge overflow in your hearts as you serve your brothers and sisters in KCF. Remember that we preach Christ crucified not because we’re strong but because we are weak and are in need of a Savior. Remember that we preach Christ crucified not because we are righteous or holy but because His grace is all sufficient. Remember that we preach Christ crucified not because we love Him but because He loved us first.  Christ reminds us that we are much worse than we think we are but that His wounds are wonderfully deeper than our sins.
I will continue to pray for you all as well as for the praise team ministry. Continue to love God and serve Him faithfully. I love you. I will miss you. Thank you for all of the memories as well as your kindness and patience with me.  Love one another and cherish all the moments you have together. Thank you. PT out.

hey, Weak. Find strength. Find hope.

Sun, 08 Apr 2012 19:01:51 -0400

Easter. The focal point of all christianity. Had this day never occurred, it would have all been a waste. Brother, Sister… do you have faith in the resurrection? can you say that He was victorious over sin, over death, and everything in between? Can you?

Lord, because You died AND rose, I live.
Because You paid the price, I am free.
Because You loved, I can love.

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Lord, I give it up. I gave it up. Not that I would be able to boast in myself that I have given it up… but as my act of surrender to You, I have given up the very thing that I’ve held onto. Please, let this not go to waste but help me to love you more than anything. May you satisfy the desires of my heart. May your praises be never endingly on my lips!

hahaha Jesus has risen. I will rise too.